///hear me roar///

Wednesday, October 31, 2001

i can't belive i forgot about two awesome hours yesterday. i went and saw footloose in burruss with my wonderful roomie :) it was soooooo good! all the actors/singers/dancers were so talented. we had a lot of fun, we were both feeling bleh so it helped perk us up :) yay for muscals!! (i know, how girly of me)

Jessica 2:17 PM

yah. i went and took that math test... it was bad. very bad. the whole last page i had no idea what i was doing, and i know i didn't do the right thing because i got really ridiculous answers that made no sense *sigh* how in the world can i have an A in something like zoology, but i can't get past the simplest math class? grrrr. i don't like math.

so anyway... i went to the doctor, got meds for my tonsillitis. i hate my tonsils. i get this every 2-3 weeks. as soon as i get the chance, these babies are coming out.

i talked to my dad for the first time in many months. that was weird, kinda emotionally straining. turns out, i've had medical insurance for 6 months. thanks dad. i could've had my wisdom teeth and my tonsils taken out this summer. nice of him to let me know. grrr. my teeth are killing me, i get whole mouth aches along with headaches, and a mouth full of blood every time i brush my teeth. blar.

so yeah. i was a little down yesterday. i'm just emotionally drained. not just b/c of my dad, though he definitely adds to it, but a ton of other things, too. every close friend i have (all 3 of them :P) either really needs me right now or is pissed at me. both of those can strain someone. not that i mind helping my friends, god i love it when i can help them feel better!! but it's definitely taking it's toll on my emotions. also, this probably sounds silly, but i finally got the three older male gerbils to their new home yesterday, and i really miss them, a lot :(

but then, last night around... 11? dan came over. he had this absolutely gorgeous bouquet of flowers for me. i mean *gorgeous*... he gave me this huge hug, and he laid down in bed with me, and stroked my hair till i fell asleep. he told me he was there so that i could have a break. god, he's such a sweetheart. sometimes i really don't know what i would do without him. i don't deserve such wonderful treatment, but i appreciate it very much. i've never been so in love as i am this morning. i love you snoopy :)

and on that happy (but very sappy, i know) note, i'll go climb back in bed i think :)


Jessica 6:14 AM

Monday, October 29, 2001

yay! thanks to everyone who was thinking of my mommy gerbil. we took her to the vet first thing this morning, liz and i both skipping a class to do so. i know, i'm a dork, i put my pets' health above my education. but we went in, and it turns out she doesn't have an eye infection! yay!! eye infections in gerbils are really serious, b/c they can spread to the brain and kill them. i was really worried about her, the poor little thing. but it's just an irritation, he thinks it was caused by one of her babies accidentally scratching her, which is very possible considering they climb all over her all the time. so he told me to get some visene, and i put one drop in her eye twice a day, and wipe away the discharge with a wet cotton ball throughout the day. i'm so relieved! :) i love my gerbils :)
Jessica 7:33 AM

Sunday, October 28, 2001

yay!! look at my pretty new blog! yay! i like this much better, a lot more colorful, and easier to read :) i'm never happy with the way things look, hehe, i'm surprised i kept that last one for so long :P

oh yeah.... i was supposed to be studying wasn't i..... oops. guess i should get to that now :P
Jessica 4:15 PM

so yeah, i had a pretty nice weekend! went out friday night, but didn't stay long. i really wasn't in the mood. and saturday we (me, dan, sarika, sanjeev, lottie, deanna) all went to the asian american student union cultural show. it was so awesome! lots of traditional dances, a traditional fashion show, martial arts demos, it was fun stuff. after that dan and i went over to adam's to watch movies, we watched dark city, it was really good!! yay good movies! the rest of the weekend was basically spent cuddling in bed with dan :):) including *all* day saturday, it was nice.

and now... i need to study. i have this huge math test tomorrow, and i'm convinced i'm gonna fail. but i guess i could try to study, i don't think it'll make any difference. but aaron did help me out, and i at least understand some stuff better now. we'll see.
Jessica 3:28 PM

Friday, October 26, 2001

god damn it. and now they're better. i swear they were all caps. grrr, I'M NOT GOING INSANE!

(hehe, but that's probably b/c i'm already there)
Jessica 5:41 AM

ack!!! why did all my past posts turn into all caps?!?! it did that after i added the little blogback thing. anyone have any ideas?! :/
Jessica 5:40 AM

Thursday, October 25, 2001

ok, so i should post!! last weekend was fuuuuuuuuun!! on friday, i went to the movies with adam, liz and snoopy (<3). we went and saw "from hell". i love horror movies! it was so good!! and while i was there, i saw my friend tom, who i haven't seen in ages. he gave me a huge hug, and we talked for awhile before the movie started. that was nice. then after the movie (which was very very awesome, as i've already said :P), we saw travis outside! another friend i haven't seen in awhile! so we kidnapped him and the five of us went to applebee's for some late dinner. it was yummy.

then on saturday dan and i just snuggled in bed till like two, hehe, that was great! then we went and met sarika, chris, jessie, deanna, and lottie at ihop and had some yummy breakfast/lunch. i was all shy though, b/c i don't know most of those people all that well. it was still nice though. while we were there, dan and i talked about kabuki, and maybe getting some people together for that. so we did! that night, me, dan, sarika, chris, lottie and adam all went to kabuki. i had never been there, and neither had adam. hehe, we had so much fun! our chef was hilarious, he was a riot!! and the food.... yuuuuuuuuuummm!! hehe.

yah, then i got up all early on sunday, because liz and i were going hiking with my lit and ecology class! man, that was a hard hike, but it was so awesome. it was a 10 mile roundtrip hike, the first like 2.5 miles were mostly uphill. it nearly killed us :P but the view was incredible! we got to the top, and ate lunch, it was so nice. so then the four of us that were from the class had to go away from everyone else, and lay down, with our eyes closed, and just listen, smell, and feel. i fell asleep!! hehe, it was a beautiful day, and a beautiful hike. it took us four hours, and was worth it. liz and i were both dead when we got home, and sore the next day. i love my professor for that class :) come on, a professor that takes you on weekend hikes? how cool is that? :)

yay! so then came the week, which has been pretty typical, but on wednesday (yesterday), i finally got all my academic relief straightened out, and went and did all the paperwork stuff, and i'm officially a BIOLOGY MAJOR! woowoo!! got all my scheduling and stuff done too, that's a relief.

and today i applied for this awesome internship working with big cats in north carolina!! oh man, i hope i get it!!! that would be incredible. and tonight i went with sarika for her to get her nosed pierced! she's so cute. it looks really good on her, too. and i gauged my first holes up to 4 gauge, got these really pretty lucite plugs :) and i took out my 8gauge second holes, letting them heal. my ears look and feel so naked!!

anyway!! i think that's enough. this always looks like *so* much more on my page. and i'm building a website from scratch, go visit The Wild World of Jess!! it still needs a ton of work, but you can check out what i've got there :P

g'night!
Jessica 7:30 PM

Friday, October 19, 2001

look look look!! i managed to take some pics of the newest baby gerbils with my webcam! they are soooooo cute! go take a look ;)

Gerbil Babies!!


Jessica 2:43 PM

Monday, October 15, 2001

lalala! today was a lot better. i woke up in a good mood :) i got my paper back in my english class, i got an A-! yay! maybe i should change my major to english.... kidding!! i think i'll stick with bio, no offence to you english majors out there :P so yah, after that i grabbed a quick bfast and went off to theatre, i really love that class. i like this semester because i'm taking all these classes that are unrelated to my major, but that interest me. i like the thought of well-roundedness. even if it takes me a little longer than four years to get out of college, at least i'll know about more than biology :)

anyway! so then after that i went to lunch with dan and sarika and chris, and off to math. i just went in and gave my stuff to someone else to turn in and left, hehe. i hate that class. i'll be struggling to get that A i'm aiming for, not because i can't do it, but because i don't care enough to do it, ya know? bleh to math

then adam took me to the pet store! yay! i bought lots of goodies for my cute little gerbies! some bedding, which i really needed, and some new toys and snacks. i spoil them so badly. adam kept making fun of me... i would sacrifice my own well being for theirs :)

so yah. around 4:30 dan came over, and after some "fun" (*wink wink*), we took a 3 hour nap! i never take naps, it was refreshing, but i'm scared that i won't get to sleep tonight. we'll see i guess. so then we went and ate and now i'm chilling here... i should be doing work, but whatever :)
Jessica 6:53 PM

Sunday, October 14, 2001

well for some reason today was really horrible for me. i was so down and lonely! i was down for several reasons, then add in my no-reason-sadness and it was even worse. i dunno, i moped a lot. eventually i got up and motivated and went to work for a couple hours. that was cool, i love my job. then i came back, showered, and went to eat with dan. he made me feel better. then we came back here a cuddled for about an hour, and he made me feel all better :) he's such a sweetie. but that's about all i did today, and now i should really get some homework done!

even though he doesn't read this... i love you snoopy :)
Jessica 6:23 PM

and now it's sunday... hehe, i had a nice weekend! :) i've found that i'm having those more and more often. despite the fact that i have no friends :P so friday night adam took me, liz, and dan out to outback, that was really nice. his dad gave him $1000, so it was his treat :) after that dan and i just chilled at his place, we had a nice evening *wink wink*. hehe. then on saturday, when we finally got out of bed at like 3pm, me, dan, and sarika all went and got our hair cut. i just got like an inch trimmed off. sarika got her layers redone... man, her hair is *so* gorgeous, i'm so jealous of her hair! hehe. and dan *really* needed a hair cut. now he's extra cute!! yah, so then we went to joe's for lunch. the rest of the day i did a lot of nothing, hehe :)

then last night we went out to the club. it was fun. i was having all these insecurity issues at first, before we left, but i usually do that every weekend :/ but once i got to the club, and started dancing, that was it. i have such a blast dancing now. hehe. there were these raver guys there, and since i was wearing my ufo's, they wouldn't stop watching me. then when dan and i sat down for a sec, this one leans over and says "is that your girl" and of course dan said yes, and he said "damn, she's hot man" and dan thanked him, hehe. they all had fancy glow sticks and pacifiers. and then when some techno-ish rave music came on, it was awesome, b/c they all started raving... and they were better than me, but it was still a blast. so then when they closed (they closed early b/c of lots of fights on the streets or something, all of downtown shut down at 1:30... i wasn't done dancing!!!) all these raver guys on ecstacy came up to me and were talking to me and sarika. she raves too, but she wasn't that much last night b/c she didn't have her big pants on. they were all rolling, and me and sarika were like "no, we don't do that, we don't need to", i think that surprised them :P anywho, so then dan and i came back here, and ordered pizza and cuddled :) hehe. yay weekends!

OH!! and and and! my gerbils had more babies! 5 this time!! hehe, they're sooooooooooooo cute! so if you know anyone who wants some pet gerbils, lemme know! i need to find homes for these cute little guys ;)
Jessica 8:41 AM

Wednesday, October 10, 2001

yay! i had a really nice day :) first of all because two of my classes were cancelled :P one of which was math, yay! i really hate math. so i was having a pretty good day, and then i went to work. today was my first day working in the fish lab, actually with the fish. now i know all i was doing was changing their water, and most people don't think fish are exciting, but i loved it! hehe, i'm a dork. so i was there for about three hours, barely even dented the number of little containers i have to change. right before i was about to leave, dan shows up :) he's got dinner for us! so i showed him around the lab a bit, then we went outside and ate dinner together on the grass. it was *so* sweet of him! and he knew exactly what to get me to eat, and exactly what to get me to drink. he's such a sweetie :) and it was such a gorgeous evening. so we sat out there for awhile, talking and stuff, and then when we were walking across the drillfield he just stopped and sat down. so i sat there with him and we cuddled on the grass :) it was the best dinner i've had in a long time.

so yeah, while we were sitting out on the drillfield, i was thinking... i don't think most people have a love as pure and strong as ours. its just so perfect. i feel like we really fit together, if that makes sense. and there's just no way everyone else experiences love like this... if they did, i think the world would be a much nicer place :)
Jessica 4:04 PM

Wednesday, October 03, 2001

hey there. yeah, i know, i don't post often enough. bleh, its hard to find time here at school, ya know? things are still going really well, i'm getting straight a's in school at this point, that makes me happy. although i should be studying for a test right now... :P i dropped philosophy though. its just not my type of thing, my mind doesn't work like that!

i got a new job!! YAY! my office job wasn't bad at all, i actually liked it and i'm upset that the people there now pretty much hate me, b/c i quit without any warning. but i couldn't pass up this job. its in the biology department, that's the main thing. i mean, i'm a biology major! hehe. i really want an internship this summer, and i really needed to start getting biology experience of some sort. so yeah. the other thing is that it pays a bit better :) right now i'm just cleaning and organizing the professors lab, which isn't very fun. men are so damn untidy and unorganized! :P but once that's done, i'll be helping take care of all his fish in his other lab, the "fish room" :) you wouldn't belive how many fish are in this place, he's doing research with them, and its really quite interesting. it made me feel really good, b/c when he was interviewing me he told me that there were a lot of other applicants, so he couldn't promise anything. but he chose me! YAY! so yeah, that's cool...

what else? not much... i've been doing kung-fu with adam every tuesday and thursday. that's great! i really like it :) not much else, school is really occupying a lot of my time, which is a good thing, b/c i'm getting good grades. go smart jess! :P i know, i'm a huge dork, hehe.

random quote from me: "i've decided, i'm a thrift store whore! and its great to be me!"
Jessica 5:16 PM