///hear me roar///

Saturday, March 30, 2002

i went to the animal shelter today! it was great!! i work with this group, ASAP (association of student for the adoption of pets)... we go to the shelter every weekend. we clean and bleach all the cells and dishes, and play lots with the dogs, and take them on long walks :) it was so awesome... i fell in love with several dogs :) it's kinda sad though, b/c every dog there was awesome... but they can't find a home :( if i could, i would have taken every single one. i did take some cute pics though :-D
Jessica 7:28 PM

Thursday, March 28, 2002

GimeeFish (10:21:41 PM): you should blog
RavnLioness (10:21:52 PM): i blogged like... yesterday
GimeeFish (10:22:10 PM): yea but you should do a blog about your great mood
GimeeFish (10:22:17 PM): save it in writing for all time and stuffs:-)
GimeeFish (10:23:14 PM): if you capture it somehow then before you know it you'll be surounded by your own happiness

ok, so dan's weird :) he wants me to blog about my good mood though, so here it is!!!
Jessica 7:24 PM

Wednesday, March 27, 2002

so i called the Carnivore Preservation Trust, where i hope to intern this summer. the acceptance letters will be mailed out either at the end of this week, or, if something comes up, at the beginning of next week. so i'll know for sure within the next couple of weeks.... *anxiously bites fingernails* ... it took everything i had not to ask if she could tell me over the phone...
Jessica 11:14 AM

ohio was ok i suppose. my little brother was great, he was very happy to see me :) but it was hard driving all the way there, staying for a day, and driving all the way back. especially since i had to do all the driving, boo. i need to teach dan to drive a manual. plus we bickered the whole way back, and then i got a speeding ticket about 30 minutes from home. *that* was annoying. it's a big ugly ticket, too. blah.

and kim and i didn't get the house we wanted. there's another house that we ended up getting... but i was really excited about this one, we went and looked at it and everything. we told them we wanted it, and everything was fine. then the owners suddenly decided that they wanted to sell. :( so they're selling our house. i haven't seen this other one, but i really liked that one, it was perfect for me and kim. plus this one's a lot more expensive :( so boo to that.

i'm still really nervous about the neurologist appointment. turns out i have to pay the deductable of $150. i need that by april 4th, blah to that. i'll be getting an MRI, a CAT scan, and an EKG. all of those!! yikes. i'm scared :-/

as you can see, i haven't been having the best time lately. tomorrow is mine and dan's one year anniversary. hopefully he'll take me out somewhere and do something so i can forget about everything for a little while.
Jessica 9:53 AM

Friday, March 22, 2002

dan and i are going to ohio for the weekend. it'll be a nice change of pace. it's my little brother's 4th birthday :) it kinda sucks though, because we'll only actually be there for a day. it's an 8 hour drive, so we'll get there around 11 tonight, and have to leave fairly early on sunday. but it'll still be nice to see everyone on saturday, which is zack's birthday. i got lots of cleaning and stuff to do before i go though. right before you leave is always a nice time to clean, that way you come back to neatness :)
Jessica 7:33 AM

Wednesday, March 20, 2002

so i went to the doctor today. last night i had another one of those spells where i feel really nauseous, but this time i didn't vomit. over the past year i have these every once in awhile, and about 3/4 of the time i vomit. i finally decided to see if anyone could diagnose this. there are a couple other small symptoms, but i won't bore you with details. well... my doctor wants me to see a neurologist. that word alone is really scary to me, it says "i think something's wrong with your brain". she thinks i might have absence seizures. that also sounds scary, and i don't like it. when i was 5 i had a very violent seizure, but all tests were inconclusive and i never had another one.

after reading up about absence seizures on the internet though, i seriously doubt that's what i suffer from. so is that a good thing? or should i be even more scared, b/c i'm back to "something's wrong with your brain" only now i don't know what? i guess this will all be settled when i go to that neurologist. but for right now i'm a little scared...
Jessica 8:50 AM

Monday, March 18, 2002

ok, so i forgot to mention that dan got me a ring :) for no reason! just because... isn't that sweet? it's nothing fancy, but i love it! i usually don't wear rings, but i've worn this one every day since i got it. it's kinda hard to explain, so i'll just post a pic :)



isn't is pretty? :)
Jessica 9:08 AM

Note: this was written last night at about midnight. Blogger was being annoying and wouldn't post it.


i know, i've been slacking again.

i've decided that i cannot fail cell and molec. this means working extra hard at it. this means taking notes and highlighting and all that good stuff while reading. this means never skipping class again!! i don't likw school this semester. it's hard :( i used to be smart, *sigh*

this weekend kinda sucked. didn't really accomplish anything except getting a couple friends really pissed off at me. i think that's all straightened out though. life is too full of drama, really. it's so silly. i guess i did accomplish some stuff today. i managed to get all my laundry done. and i mean all of it. it was 6 loads total, including sheets, my blanket, towels, and all my clothes. it wasn't fun, but dan helped so that was nice. i also got my cell and molec reading all done, *phew*

i think i'll go to bed now. gotta go to class bright and early, and i wanna be attentive. goodnight.
Jessica 5:37 AM

Monday, March 11, 2002

this is so stupid... i just had a week-long break from school, and i don't wanna be here, i don't wanna go to classes. what's wrong with me? i thought i loved school :( i have a cell and molec test wednesday. i'm so scared, it's gonna kill me.

i figured out my plans for the rest of my college career. i could finish next year, but it would involve either:
A) taking 18-20 credits a semester and killing myself to get mediocre grades (taking ochem and physics at the same time... eek!)
B) forgetting my dream internship and staying here to take summer classes

i'm not really sure i wanna do either of those options. so i think i'll just take the extra year, and be at tech for a total of five years. that's not so bad, right? and since i'll have a little extra time, i'm gonna get a theatre minor. that should be fun. it'll be nice to have a break from all my bio and chem classes. so here's what i'm taking next semester:

OChem
OChem Lab
Genetics
Mammology
Mammology Lab
Into to Acting

*maybe adding cell and molec to that if i decide i need to drop it :-/

so yeah. i think i've got it all figured out :-/ i'm so ready to be done with school. *sigh* i've also been reconsidering going to vet school. but you need a 3.5, and i have a 3.4. so i gotta work really hard and bring that up if i decide to do that. school is really stressing me out lately, it's all that's on my minf. now that you couldn't tell, right? *sigh*
Jessica 8:04 PM

Sunday, March 10, 2002

i don't wanna go back to school tomorrow.

does anyone even read this?
Jessica 11:26 AM

Friday, March 08, 2002

i dunno... should i tell the whole world my secret?? *fidgets*
Jessica 11:40 AM

Wednesday, March 06, 2002

i miss my dan!!!!!!! *cries*
Jessica 11:23 AM

Monday, March 04, 2002

yeah, i was supposed to go to north carolina and volunteer and work with the big cats over break... but that didn't work out :( they never emailed me back, and i couldn't just show up, you never know what's going on at a place like that. so instead i'm staying with kim all week :) we should have some fun together, but i sure miss dan a whole lot :( i hate being away from him, i hate just knowing that i can't go see him if i wanna. it sucks.

let's see... i have a job now. i'll be working at the subway downtown. i know, it's not a very good job, but i need the money any way i can get it, so this will have to work. plus, i get to keep in all my piercings, and that's definitely a plus. i should start sometime this week, they're gonna give me a call.

saturday afternoon kim and i had to chase four little girl gerbils all around her room, and even across the house into the kitchen. my gerbils are in the bathroom, and somehow beetlejuice (the kitty) figured out how to open the cage with the sliding top. he didn't hurt any of my little gerbies, but they ended up all getting lose. they were all in the bedroom except selene, who was behind the stove! but we got them all, and they're all ok. but i had a heartattack at first... i was very scared :( i love those little furballs :)

anyway, i'm at the emporium and i really need to go do my laundry at the laundromat :( bye :-P
Jessica 10:13 AM