///hear me roar///

Monday, February 17, 2003

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We have gotten so much snow here!! Right now we have at least 2 feet out there, and the last time I checked it was still coming down pretty good. Absolute craziness. It's in the top five as far as how much snow Central Park has seen this winter. And I have to be here for it! Stranded at Tom's place. I can't go into work, so I'm losing money :( I love the snow, but when it costs me money and I have no one to play in it with... it's not all that great, ya know? Bah to snow!

Turns out I'm going to be leaving here a day earlier than I expected. A friend of mine and Tom's (Ed) is visiting from Philly, and he's an auto mechanic. He's agreed to look at my car and repair anything at his cost for me. But after being here and test driving it, he's realized that it needs a new clutch (yikes!!). He says I need to plan on staying a night for that kind of big repair. Well I need to be in Ohio the night of the 21st (family bday party the 22nd), so I'll be leaving here and driving to Philly on the 20th instead of the 21st. This means I have tomorrow and Wednesday. And THAT'S IT. Jesus Christ, it's insane how quickly that crept up on me. Do you have any idea how much shit I have to do in the next two days?? Man oh man, I shouldn't even be on the computer right now, heh. Craziness.

I should actually be heading to bed now, we're getting up super early to head into the city and sit in on the Conan O'Brien show. This is so super exciting for me :-D

I'll make sure to blog about that when I get back! :Love: to my Blacksburg friends, especially Aparna dealing with the car accident and Wes for just being Wes... and much :love: to my Tony out on the West Coast :)
Jessica 9:20 PM

Saturday, February 15, 2003

A blog update -- how exciting ;-)

There's really not a *whole* lot going on around here. I've been working a lot, getting ready for my big move and whatnot. I'm starting to get antsy, anxious, nervous, and all other similar words. It's a little scary, ya know? Driving across the country alone like that. A little intimidating. But I'm very much looking forward to it. Yay to new adventures and going where life takes you.

I worked Wednesday night, and it was actually really good for a Wednesday. I was so pleasantly surprised. Then on Thursday I went into the city and hung out with Chelle, just watching TV and talking and whatnot... and then Jerry came home and we all goofed around and had a good time, ordered food and whatnot. I ended up staying a little too late, and my last train from Newark Penn Station left at 1:06 -- I realized this at 12:30 and knew I'd never make it. So I slept there on Jerry's futon, and left the next day. I was upset that my kitties had to be home all alone for a night (Tom was working), but I have to remind myself that they're *cats*. They're perfectly fine alone. :)

Friday was Valentine's Day. I hate that day. I've always gone on and on about how it's terrible, and this big corporate marketing scheme, etc etc... but yet every year, I hope and prey that the person I'm with at the time gets me something or does something for me. And every year I feel a little let down when that doesn't happen. This year was no different. I hate to admit it, but I was pretty upset that I didn't even get a card from Tony. I know, it's dumb and girly, but I never claimed to be perfect, did I? I actually didn't get any cards or any well wishes from anyone. But, I guess, it *is* Valentine's Day, and it *is* pretty silly. I hate that I get disppointed over it. Blah.

Anyway, I worked last night, and it was *terrible*. I guess that's because it was V-Day, so everyone was out somewhere nice with their significant others. I did the best I could, and unfortunately that wasn't very good last night. But I did go to this great little diner after work with someone I work with for breakfast. That almost made the night bareable ;)

I work tonight, too. I actually need to wrap up this post and go shower and all that. (I just had this enter my brain: "And all that JAZZ!" -- from Chicago, good movie!) After work Tom and a bunch of other people from the New York area are taking me into the city for a going away party. This should be fun :) I haven't gone out drinking and relaxing in awhile, so I'm looking forward to it. Should be good times.

Alright, time for showering and heading off to work and my pre-work phone call to Tony :)
Jessica 2:08 PM

Wednesday, February 12, 2003

Wow.

::Looks around, sees cobwebs in the corners, brushes away some dust...::

It has been quite some time, hasn't it? Wow, three months since my last post, and my life is so dramatically different. Kind of amazing just how different it is, really. It's so different, that I considered doing away with all of those old posts, and starting my blog from scratch for all the new readers, and the old ones, too. But I changed my mind -- there's no reason to do away with the past like that. It makes an interesting read for me, actually. A little surreal though.

Let's see, where can I start?? Honestly things are so different, and so much has happened. Well, I'll start with the subject of my last post -- Arwen. She came through surgery wonderfully, and fully recovered back into the mischevious little climber that she is. I still have both her and Simon (that's his new name, though not so new anymore), and they're both still doing great and keeping me company.

Other than those two little sweethearts -- everything is different. Right now I'm living in New Jersey temporarily. For xmas I went and visited my family in Ohio, then drove over here to spend some time with friends and party in NYC for New Year's Eve. I planned on going back to Virginia early January. I never made it back. I actually ended up meeting someone special at that New Year's Eve party, and my life has been changed because of him. Before New Year's, I was contemplating moving somewhere new and different -- but I didn't know where to, and the time of this supposed move was still unknown -- it wasn't a priority. Well the special man in the picture that link above points to (Tony) lives in Seattle, WA. So all of a sudden I had a destination, and a time frame (ASAP). So that's my plan. I've been working my ass off since the New Year's party, trying to get up the money to make this move possible. I haven't gotten very much together, really, but I'm leaving soon anyway. I made one last week long trip to VA, and packed what I could in my small car... everything else went either to Goodwill, the YMCA thrift store, or the dump. Since then I've been here working, except for a week long trip to Seattle, to spend some time with Tony (I missed him terribly), and to get a chance to see the city that was soon to be my new home place. I'm leaving NJ February 21st. What's that, nine days now?

Tony is a very special man. He's unlike anyone I've ever met before, and that's not me being dumb and romantic -- he really is that unique. We spent some incredible time together while he was here in NYC, and also a glorious week together in Seattle. I love this man, but I don't think I'm quite to where I can say I'm *in* love with him. But I can see myself falling head over heels in love eventually. I look forward to spending more time with him, and just being in a regular relationship with him. I think we have an amazing future together.

There are so many more things I feel I should talk about here, for all of those readers out there who don't know me personally enough to know all about my life. I'll talk about those things in time though (Dan, my friends in Blacksburg, my family, etc). Right now my laundry is calling, and I need to make some phone calls before heading off to work.

It's nice to be back... to have a place I can come and spill the things I'm thinking and feeling. And as always, feedback is very much welcomed and appreciated :)
Jessica 1:14 PM