///hear me roar///

Wednesday, May 01, 2002

bloggy blog blog. not too much going on, really. let's see... danny came down this past weekend! i hadn't seen him for a year and a half, craziness. we had a good time. all we really did was eat out and chill. he bought me this awesome watch i had been wanting, just for the heck of it. he makes crazy money at a full time job, and has no rent or bills or anything :) so we had fun. and he rented a car for the trip, too. a 2002 dodge intrepid. very nice, very luxury. so yes, that was good times.

in other news, my psychiatrist now thinks i have social anxiety disorder. they are tagging so many disorders and diagnoses on me, it's making my head spin. i know i'm afraid of social situations... but i dunno. i guess i'll find out through counseling and all that nonsense. i just wanna be normal! wait... no i don't. i just want a healthy brain :-P

i'm not in the whole exam craziness like everyone else. i'm getting academic relief this semester. it's good, because that way i won't fail all these classes. but it's bad, because i feel like i've let myself down, that i'm a failure. again. i got it for a mixture of reasons. the meningitis spell (which left me outta comission for a little while), all these doctor appointments, all the newly discovered anxiety problems i have (??), and, of course, the always returning depression. ahh... it's like an old friend. it goes away for a long time, but then when it comes back it's like it never left, and things are like they once were. except i like it when old friends come back.

i think i'll go read a little bit now.

if anyone wants to hang out, watch a movie, ANYTHING, you know how to reach me...
Jessica 4:47 PM