///hear me roar///

Monday, July 30, 2001

bored bored bored bored

you guessed it, another boring monday sitting around here doing nothing :P

we had a nice weekend though :) not very eventful, but very nice. we went and saw planet of the apes... not too bad, but not all that great. it was kinda cool, but it lacked sufficient characterization and the ending was completely awful. there really needs to be some good movies, and soon!

we went out to dinner saturday night with friends of the family, to this cool vietnamese restaurant. it was very yummy. then we came home and dan and i ended up going on a long walk outside, it was very nice :) i love my boy...

i think i'll go play more final fantasy... i'm not addicted! I'M NOT! I SWEAR!! :P
Jessica 11:40 AM

Friday, July 27, 2001

ok kiddies, this one's gonna be long... (who are the 'kiddies' anyway? not like anyone reads this :P)

so wednesday was really cool. dan's mom stayed home from work, and her and judy (the little sister) were going shopping, and asked if i wanted to go... well, why not? its better than just sitting in the house. so i went with them, to the mall, to a few other stores, all over the place. we were gone for like 4 hours or something. but we had a lot of fun!! i actually bonded with both of them. dan's mom also bought me three shirts! just because :) wasn't that nice of her? his family is so great. i'm getting closer to everyone, its cool. they're such a great family, really. anyway... then we came home, and judy and i sat around a bit and traded playing final fantasy IX, we're both completely hooked. when dan came home, him and i went out to dinner with a couple of his friends. kalsoom and rebecca. we went to ruby tuesday... kalsoom is awesome, she's so nice, and i really liked her. rebecca, however, was kinda snotty, she was very condescending toward me, and i hate that. but that's ok, we had a nice time anyway :) that night we all sat around and watched shawshank redemption. i had never seen that movie, and it blew me away!! it was great!!

yesterday i didn't really do much, judy and i sat around playing final fantasy some more :) awesome game. dan came home and worked on fixing his computer... bleh :P nicole had a friend over, a friend they all knew from when they were in pakistan. so we all ate dinner then came down here and watched tomas crown affair, very cool movie.

today's going alright, i had an interview this morning at blockbuster... the interview was at 11:30, i was on my way back here at 11:28. basically, they're looking for people to replace all the people that are leaving for school in a month. so the fact that i'm also leaving for school... yeah, you get the point. *sigh* however, he pretty much promised me a job for next summer, if i'm here. ah well :P

on another note... nicole's friend told dan the other night that i came across as a strong, independant, confident woman! that made me feel really good, because that's how i want to come across! since then, and some things that were said at dinner with dan's friends, i've been a lot more confident. i don't know, its weird. all of a sudden i believe dan when he says he loves me, and that he thinks i'm beautiful. its a great feeling, and i can feel it already making our relationship stronger. ahh... to be in love <3<3<3


Jessica 10:37 AM

Tuesday, July 24, 2001

yah, i actually went rollerblading again today. can you believe it? i was active two days in a row! only this time i only went around the block once, my back is really fucking sore from the three blocks yesterday. ah well, it'll strengthen up eventually. (i hope)...

after that i showered and went down the road (i was able to use the car! yay!) and got some stuff to help heal my piercings. i got the ideas from the todd bertrang webpage, thanks for adam directing me there. i got some almond oil to keep them moist, and some fragrance and color free neutrogena soap to keep them clean. i currently have four piercings acting up :/ hopefully todd knows what he's talking about and they'll get better soon!!

last night i was awful... i had forgotten to take my medicine the night before, but thought it no big deal because i've been doing so well. but i discovered that i'm doing well because of the medicine. i was so depressed last night!! i was crying and angry and didn't wanna talk to anyone. thank god dan is so patient, he was right there soothing me the whole time. so i took my medicine again last night. it makes me wonder though, am i hiding behind a mask of this medicine?!? that's exactly what i didn't want... will i be dependant upon it my entire life, to make me happy? i hope not... but its all very confusing... hmm...
Jessica 12:14 PM

Monday, July 23, 2001

wow, that felt great!!!! i went rollerblading, just three times around the block. but it felt so nice to get out, use my muscles, and get some sun :) i feel wonderful, i think i'll make that a daily routine.

now its time to hit the pool!!
Jessica 10:39 AM

so here it is, monday again. boo!! i like the weekends, there are people around. but at least dan's little sister is home from camp... so i have someone around, at least.

this weekend was lotsa fun! hehe :) adam came down to visit, because today's his birthday. he got here friday night, after running around farlington (dan's neighborhood) lost for awhile. then we talked and stuff, and richard came over, and we watched movies... well... i fell asleep, they watched movies :P

then on saturday, we went to king's dominion!! lots of fun! we got there around 3, it took us two hours to get there!! traffic was awful. but eventually we made it. we were there until they closed, at 10 :) we rode lots of rides, obviously. we went on this water ride where you don't usually get very wet...... adam got drenched! it was hilarious, he looked like an angry wet cat, i couldn't stop laughing. we also stood in line for an hour and a half (!!!) to ride the volcano. awesome coaster!! omg, it rocked. anyway... we had a lot of fun, but by 10 we were all very tired, with sore feet, and i had sun stroke. but it was all worth it :)

so we came home and crashed, then got up sunday to go down to d.c., adam wanted to see it. so we went down there, looked at some monuments, spent some time in the national air and space museum, then went and got food. then, at around 5, adam left to go back to bburg... i hope he had a nice bday :)

that's about it. last night dan and i watched some tv and just layed around being lazy :) and now its monday and he's at work! boo!! :P

i think i'll go rollerblade now... its been awhile.


Jessica 9:52 AM

Friday, July 20, 2001

what a sweet boy i have. he read my earlier blog post and saw that i was feeling down. so he called me up, talking to me a bit... then left work early, and got me flowers on the way here :) they're so pretty, and they smell so good :)

that boy really knows how to make me feel better. i'm so lucky to have him in my life. i love you dan :)
Jessica 2:31 PM

nobody loves me
everybody hates me
guess i'll go eat worms.



not a good day.
Jessica 12:30 PM

Thursday, July 19, 2001

still not much going on... i'm bored! i should go outside and go swimming or rollerblading or something. but i'm an unmotivated bum... so i think i'll sit here and do nothing :P

yesterday dan's mom took me around to the temp agencies, i ended up turning in one resume, faxing one, and emailing one. now hopefully these people will call me and i can get some work in while i'm here. and hopefully they won't mind piercings. if they do, they can kiss my ass. i'm not forsaking part of who i am for anyone or anything...

after we got back my mom called :) that was a nice surprise. we talked for a long time, and she's going to start at ken state university this fall!! she'll be a college freshman, and i'll be a junior (or a sophmore and a half, or something like that, but that's a different story)! She wants to be a nurse :) I'm so proud of her and excited for her :) She's been talking about doing this for a long time, and now she finally is :) yay to mom!

yah... so then dan and i sat around and watched blade runner, pretty cool movie... not much else went on, just being lazy around here

but this weekend adam's coming up!! for his birthday, and we're gonna take him to king's dominion! i haven't been there in years! i'm excited, i get to hang out with adam *and* go to king's dominion! its gonna be fun :)
Jessica 9:16 AM

Tuesday, July 17, 2001

hmm... well i'm feeling better this morning than i was yesterday. i talked to a good friend i hadn't talked to in awhile and was missing, and she made me feel a bit better :) a couple other people were also nice and helped :)

after dan came home i was still pretty blah and he tried everything he could to cheer me up. such a sweetheart. he actually picked me up and carried me up the stairs and outside, just to sit together outside and talk. he said the outdoors would make me feel better. and he was right... :) so we pretty much just layed around till dinner, then we ate, and after that we went over to richard's to watch a movie. i like richard. at first i thought i didn't, but the more i hang out with him the more i realize that he's like me. he's just really quiet and reserved until you get to know him better. maybe people are confused about me at first too? *shrugs* anyway, we watched this very silly german movie called "the killer condom"!! hehe, about these little condoms that bit off the guys' dicks after they were rolled on. it was very humorous.

then we came home and went to bed :) falling asleep to him also makes me feel better. mmm, i really love that boy. its very scary being so in love with someone. but wonderful at the same time :)
Jessica 7:06 AM

Monday, July 16, 2001

blah blah blah

feeling alone and unimportant and unloved is no fun at all. and this sounds so damn selfish, but i won't have anyone saying, "no! you are important and loved!" i need to face it. i make friends, i hold on to them, and when i lose them, its hard to let go :( but i should start learning how to.

no one reads this, why do i post here?? because i'm vain?? no one cares what goes on in my life. no one cares about me. god. there's this little community of nice people that i think are great. oh to be a real part of that. why do i have such trouble finding and making friends?! its very depressing.

i miss people. bad. this sucks. *sigh*
Jessica 10:09 AM

Saturday, July 14, 2001

look look! i figured out the reblogger thing. now it works *and* looks like its supposed to. cool. now post post post! i gotta go watch this movie with dan and richard, dan's whining ;) but that's ok, he's cute, too! ;)
Jessica 9:25 PM

so i realized that my special template totally sucked. so i went back to one of the generic blogger ones. i'll just build on this one, i'm not good enough at html :P however, i did figure out how to get reblogger working. so leave me some messages!! but its still big and to the side, i can't figure out why. ah well, at least its there and working :P

i'm still not doing much here. the weekend's nice though b/c i get lots of dan time! :) always a good thing! today we went swimming (i'm getting really tan!), laid in the grass, played frisbee with his friend, richard, and now we're watching movies and such. all good stuff! oh!! and dan took me to this burger place, a place that he's been telling me is much better than mike's. so i was skeptic, but excited. better than mike's?!?! could it be??!!!!?! so we went. omg. my boyfriend has the worse taste ever. he doesn't care for mike's, but likes this place?? yeah, it was a pretty damn good burger, i have to admit, and the fries were great. however! mike's burger are a million times better. i know this isn't important... but whatever. i don't think this space is for important stuff. besides, its not like anyone reads this.

anyway! i'm having a pretty cool time. i'm going on monday to a temp agency, and they should hook me up with some work. we'll see.

alright... i'll be around :)
Jessica 8:50 PM

Thursday, July 12, 2001

sorry i haven't posted in a few days, i'm at dan's now :) we were going to hook up my computer here, but i accidentally put the wires and keyboard and mouse in storage. so i'm stuck on this slow windows machine if i wanna get online. boo!

so what have i been doing? not much, heh. i've been playing dark cloud on the ps2 a *lot*. i freaking love that game, i'm addicted. but other than that, i haven't been doing much during the day... i mean, i'm here alone all day long. gets kinda boring, ya know? blah!

but things are great when everyone comes home :) everyone's treating me really well, like family. its nice to be in a real family environment... i've never had that before, its actually really cool. i went swimming with dan's older sister (nicole) one day when she took a day off work, and yesterday dan's mom stayed home and i went and ran errands with her. yesterday evening we all went to this concert thing in a park. we took a picnic basket and blankets, picked up some food, and had a picnic on the grass!! it was a brass quintet, nice music. but my family *never* did stuff like that. ever. its kinda nice.

but i do miss blacksburg, especially during the day when there's nothing to do and no one to talk to. i miss being able to go out to the kitchen and talk to aaron in the morning, or walking into adam's bedroom just to talk. i'm bored!! ah well, i'll get over it :P besides, i do get to see dan everyday, and sleep next to him every night, that's nice :)

and i don't think anyone reads this... but i got the little discuss thing to work. so if you read this, let me know damnit, and talk to me! :) ((even though the font's too big and its not where i want it...... i'll fix that later!!))
Jessica 6:54 AM

Saturday, July 07, 2001

yay! everyone's here!! dan got here around 4:30 yesterday :) me, him, and adam then went to mike's where dan went on to tell me that he doesn't much care for mike's burgers. i told him i couldn't see him anymore. hehe. but he's nuts, really, they're the best burgers there are. so then we came back here, hung out for a little while ;)... then went to rendezvous with adam, b/c he had to show him the webpage b/c he had just finished it. and i got my second lobe holes stretched up to 8g! wooowoo! so then we came back, and just played around, and ended up falling asleep while waiting for my family. so my mom calls around 12:30... they're in *north carolina*!! yeah, they missed the exit. so! they would be in later than planned... so we fell back asleep, and ended up eventually getting there (after being lost in christiansburg!) around... 2:30ish. zack was soooo happy to see me :) that made me really feel great. we stayed there around an hour, then left. neither dan nor i had eaten since mike's, so we stopped at ihop and had some breakfast. then of course we came here and crashed :) and as i type this, he's still sleeping in my bed. so very cute! mmmm, he's great :) i love him so much! so today i'm going to spend time with my family and leave dan to adam... hehe

Jessica 9:29 AM

Thursday, July 05, 2001

lalala... so i got my new tattoo today! oooooo, very pretty!!



but trust me, it looks about a million times better in person, much brighter. i love it!! and you can't beat that price ;) ((free)). adam went with me and watched, it was cool and it wasn't really all that painful!

that's basically all i did today... went to mike's with adam and logan, went back to rendezvous with adam for a few minutes, then went down to kroger shopping with adam a few moments ago. the rest of my day has been sent packing! ugh! i hate packing so much. but my boy, and my mom, and my brother, and my grandma will all be here tomorrow :) i'm excited to see them :)

i've got a little more packing i'd like to do tonight, then i think i'll go to bed. i'll finish the rest in the morning before dan gets here! :)
Jessica 9:55 PM

Wednesday, July 04, 2001

today started out horrible, but it got ok by the end :) i didn't really do anything all day long, despite me telling myself i was gonna get some boxes and finish packing. ah well :P i'll finish that up sometime...

so later on aaron asks if i wanna go over to rob's with him and grill some food. i say sure, tell adam about it, and he wants to go too. so we went over there, and rob grilled some hot dogs and burger, very good stuff. i hadn't had grilled food in ages :) then we went in search of fireworks!! there was no way in hell i was going to go the 4th without seeing some fireworks :) but rob had badly burned his hand, and didn't wanna drive. and adam's tracker isn't very comfortable for four. so i got to drive :) i like driving, and hadn't been able to in ages. well we were driving along, and the fireworks started, but we couldn't see them that well. so we hunted for a spot to no avail. i was starting to get bummed, thinking i'd miss them. but then we found a spot, and it was perfect b/c we could stand at the car and wartch them. they were so pretty :) fireworks turn me into such a kid, i swear :)

the only thing that kinda sucked about today is that i missed my mom, brother and grandma. we have this big fourth of july tradition, and this was the first time i missed out on it. if i had a car, i would've been there. i thought about them a lot today, especially while watching the fireworks! because i know my mom and grandma love them, and i would've liked to see zack's reactions :)

12 hours from now i'll be being tattooed :)

my love, my light, my soul will be here day after tomorrow :)

my family will also be here day after tomorrow :) haven't seen them in 6 months...

i have a great couple of days to look forward too!!
Jessica 8:06 PM

Tuesday, July 03, 2001

*yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawns* i've been really tired all day for some reason. i think i get enough sleep... but i don't really keep track of it. anywho... today was alright i suppose. ate a huge ass lunch, and *then* adam wanted to go to mike's! that punk. so i went anyway, and talked while he ate. then a little while later we went over to john's, and adam scanned more pics for him while i sat around... and while i was there, i got inspired!! with some helpful ideas from adam, i've decided that i'm going to incorporate my lovely gecko tattoo into a back piece. my whole back won't be covered, but it will basically span my whole back. put some foilage behind my gecko, extend that into a vine, have the vine snake down my back, with flowers and leaves branching off, and maybe put a snake in there :) mmm, its going to be soooo pretty!!! i'm excited :)

then we came here, took some pics, ordered a pizza, watched NIN videos (did i mention i *love* trent reznor??!), took more pics... and here i am! :P

as a side note... i really miss my dan...
Jessica 10:30 PM

Monday, July 02, 2001

lalala... my third post of the day. actually... i guess its technically tuesday! anywho. today was alright, didn't do much after we got internet back. kinda sat on my computer for awhile :) adam and i went to rendezvous, so adam could give him back his taper, and adam was gonna work on his website, but he was in the middle of a tattoo and we decided we'd come back later. while looking through some flash, i fell in love with this awesome little dragonfly.... decided that i would definitely have it on me some day :)

so we came home, then went out with aaron and logan to play some frisbee :) that was lots of fun, nice warm sun and cool grass! aaahhh.... so then adam and i went back to rendezvous and adam started scanning pics and stuff for the website, and i asked john how much it would be for my cute little dragonfly, on my ankle. he said $40!! that's a fucking incredible price for this particular piece, i'm glad my artist loves me :) so then a bit later, we were about to leave, and john says that if its ok with adam, he'll do the tat for free!!! see, adam's been helping him tons with his computer, and in exchange, john will do piercings and tattooes. well adam is pretty much done with piercings, so he lets me have some instead! well adam said that it was fine!! so we set a time, and i'll be getting new ink on thursday morning. i'm so excited!! aaaahhhh! hehe, very generous of adam! so far, out of him helping john, i've gotten 3 free piercings and now i'll have a new tat. very cool. thank god for computer geek roommates!

anywho... and yeah, a couple posts ago i talked about moving... since then i've gotten a few concerned responces :) not to worry, its just till the end of the summer! i'll be back here for semester classes :) but i'll have fun while i'm there!

i think is my bedtime. goodnight :)
Jessica 10:09 PM

WE HAVE INTERNET IN THE CONDO AGAIN! hehe, woohoo!! :)
Jessica 2:41 PM

we still don't have internet in the condo. so where am i? you guessed it, the math emporium. bleh. the internet is much more enjoyable from home, imo. adam talked to the naxs people today, they said its possible we may have it back up by today. we'll see i guess...

yesterday was ok i suppose. i left here and went to kroger to buy some food, as i was starving, then went home only to realize that adam and aaron were gone... and i didn't have my keys. so i was locked out with frozen food and milk. not fun. i sat there for awhile, not really knowing what to do, then remembered that the sliding glass door is always unlocked. however, the difficult part was trying to climb up onto the balcony. its about half a story above the ground, something like that. so i left my groceries at the front door, and ran around the back of the building. i tried to climb up, but my upper body just isn't strong enough to pull this big ass over :) so then i thought i'd go to the dumpster and see if there was anything there i could bring over and stand on. and there was this big block of wood!! so i lugged it over, stood on it, and pulled myself over. adam and aaron came home about 2 hours later. heh, so its a damn good thing i figured that out. except my knees are all scraped, but that's alright.

so anyway, then a little later i dyed my hair all black with the dye i got from kroger. i swear i was made to have black hair. it looks a lot better on me than brown hair! so yeah, that was cool. then a little later adam, aaron, and i went to see AI. that was an awesome movie. totally blew me away, not at all what i expected. yeah, then i came home, talked to dan for a bit, read, and went to sleep. that's all.

i've been trying to figure out how to manipulate my blog template so that it looks cooler... but i have no idea where to start. you'd think that having created an html personal website i could do this. but no, i can't :/ so... i might mess around with it more, i dunno. right now i'm going to go home and eat. i've been here for hours.
Jessica 12:20 PM

Sunday, July 01, 2001

and here we go :) my millionth attempt at a blog that i'll actually keep up. not likely, but its worth a shot i suppose.

so i'm sitting here today, in the god damn math emporium. you know, i guess this place isn't that bad when you don't have to come here for math. quiet, comfy chairs, nice computers (even though they're macs -- boo!), but most importantly, INTERNET! yes, our lovely friend the internet resides here. every computer is connected. thank god i live right behind this place. our internet in the condo is broke. i don't know why, and the morons down at net access are incompetant. who knows when it'll be fixed. which is why i sit here in the emporium for hours at a time. i really think i'm addicted to the internet. is that a bad addiction?? who knows. i didn't realize it until i didn't have a connection at home. now i come and sit here cuz i GOTTA HAVE MY FIX!

ahh... the internet... what a lovely creation. so i'm moving in a week! to arlington, for the rest of the summer. i'm both happy and sad. sad because i really like where i'm living, i love my roomies :) i'll miss going to mike's with adam everyday, stuff like that. and i'll miss having a room of my own, and that NICE BED! hehe... happy because i'll be saving a lot of money, it'll be easier to find a job, and i'll be with my dan everyday!! that's the best part, of course ;) this whole seeing him every two weeks just doesn't work for me :P so i think it'll be nice :) one more week... dan, HERE I COME!! :)
Jessica 11:58 AM