///hear me roar///

Tuesday, July 24, 2001

yah, i actually went rollerblading again today. can you believe it? i was active two days in a row! only this time i only went around the block once, my back is really fucking sore from the three blocks yesterday. ah well, it'll strengthen up eventually. (i hope)...

after that i showered and went down the road (i was able to use the car! yay!) and got some stuff to help heal my piercings. i got the ideas from the todd bertrang webpage, thanks for adam directing me there. i got some almond oil to keep them moist, and some fragrance and color free neutrogena soap to keep them clean. i currently have four piercings acting up :/ hopefully todd knows what he's talking about and they'll get better soon!!

last night i was awful... i had forgotten to take my medicine the night before, but thought it no big deal because i've been doing so well. but i discovered that i'm doing well because of the medicine. i was so depressed last night!! i was crying and angry and didn't wanna talk to anyone. thank god dan is so patient, he was right there soothing me the whole time. so i took my medicine again last night. it makes me wonder though, am i hiding behind a mask of this medicine?!? that's exactly what i didn't want... will i be dependant upon it my entire life, to make me happy? i hope not... but its all very confusing... hmm...
Jessica 12:14 PM