///hear me roar///

Thursday, January 31, 2002

this might be a long one... so bear with me

i finally have my car. i have insurance, tags, registration and title in my name, a parking permit... and the car is actually in my possesion. man, it's so great to have a car, it really is. it's very convienant. i need to go somewhere? i just go. :-P the day i got it (tuesday) i went to the mall with sarika and dan. me, dan, sarika and chris are all going to the midwinter's dance. (i know... imagine me, in a dress, at a formal dance -- weird). so i needed to get a dress. well i ended up getting two :) friday is formal, and saturday is semi-formal, so dan bought me two dresses and a pair of shoes. he's good to me :) everything was on major sale though, so it didn't cost him too much damage. the semi-formal dress is cute, light blue, mid-length, flowy at the bottom. the formal one... wow. it's white, very sparkly (but not sequins -- ew), and flares just a bit at my shins. it really is an absolutely gorgeous dress. i honestly don't feel that i deserve to wear it. there's no way i do that dress justice. but all in all it was a fun trip, a pretty good day.

yesterday liz and i went to wal-mart, then came back here and had blue's clues mac-n-cheese for dinner. that was fun. today i went to the pet store, hung out a lot with dan, and adam, another pretty good day. here's the thing -- i'm having these days that i know are good; full of friends and pretty good things going on. yet... i've been in this slump. i really can't figure out why i've been kinda sad :-/ at first i thought that it must be the weather, as it started on one of those cold rainy days. however, it's been unbelievably gorgeous the last couple of days... and i'm still kinda down. i dunno what's going on with me... but i wish it would just go away.

on another note -- i'm a human being. not a circus freak sideshow. please do not stare at me like i'm some kind of freak, and like i don't know you're doing it or don't have feelings. it's so damn obnoxious. i know i look a little different than the average girl (thank god!), and that i dress a little eccentrically sometimes... but that's not a reason to stare and whisper about a person. we are not in high school anymore. you'll never make it in this world if you can't accept things (people) that aren't exactly like you. this table of girls at lunch (who all looked the same) wouldn't stop staring at me, whispering, turning to look, craning their necks, judging me. god that annoys me. if only i weren't afraid of conflict... i woulda (shoulda) said something. oh well.
Jessica 10:07 PM

Saturday, January 26, 2002

I BOUGHT A CAR! woowoo! hehe, i'm excited. i bought a cute little 1991 mazda 323. i like it :) it has a few dents, and the interior isn't *wonderful*, but overall it's a pretty decent little car. and i got it for a good price. and it's a manual!! woowoo! i already got an insurance plan, i bought that online ;) now all i gotta do is get tags, and get the car. yay! i should be driving by mid-next week. i can't wait. i love financial aid refunds :) they're nice :) so glad to have a car... *contented sigh*

here's a picture of what my car looks like, except mine's blue :)


Jessica 4:15 PM

well, i ended up going out with adam last night to watch him get pierced. he got an appadravya. if you don't know what that is, you prolly don't wanna know :P anyway, he was in a lot of pain :/ i didn't like it! i don't like seeing my friends in pain, and lemme tell you, he was hurtin. him being in pain actually made me a but light headed. but the piercing looks cool as hell :) (i think).

after that i just went over to dan's and pretty much passed out. some shit happened last night, and i was in a shitty mood, and the whole thing just wore me out. life contains to much drama, sheesh.
Jessica 8:00 AM

Friday, January 25, 2002

god i'm pathetic. it's friday night. i was all excited b/c i don't hafta go to work. but i wish i would. then at least i could make myself think that people missed me, and wanted to hang out with me. instead i get to sit here and get slapped in the face with the fact that no one cares if i'm around...

blah!!!
Jessica 5:51 PM

Wednesday, January 23, 2002

i really need more close female friends. i have...one. and she's never around. i really miss having a best friend to be totally goofy with. someone that i can do absolutely nothing with and have a great time. someone that's *so* in tune with me... blah. i have dan, and he's all those things, but it's not the same, ya know? i miss having a best friend. someone i can be myself around, 100%, all the time. maybe adults don't have friends like that? maybe i've "outgrown" best friends? or maybe it's just me... i'm so bad at meeting people and making friends. i dunno... whatever the reason, i sure miss it.
Jessica 7:10 PM

yay! laundry is done! well, most of it anyway. i'd like to do a couple more loads tomorrow to get it all outta the way. sheets, towels, etc. i really hate doing laundry here in the dorms. boo.

yesterday i went to kung-fu. i went back for the first time in awhile. amazingly, they remembered me and were happy to see me :) i thought i had forgotten everything, but after going over all 8 steps of the first form, they came back to me. and i finally got moved up into the next group. i'm no longer with the beginners! yay! i know kung-fu! well.... ok.... not really. but still.

today i called the foxridge people b/c we hadn't heard anything from them. since none of us have ever had an apartment, we weren't sure what we were supposed to expect. well they said that we were all approved, and that everything went through without any problems! yay! now we're just waiting on specific apartment assignment. that's a relief, i wasn't sure i'd be approved with my bad credit and low income :/ but i was :)

let's see... what else? liz and i are definitely starting aerobics. we're going to hi/low on monday nights, and to gut, butts, and thighs on thursdays. hehe, silly name. so there's that, there's kung-fu every tuesday and thursday, and i might start fencing. doesn't that sound cool? anyway, that with my new diet, and i'll be hot in no time! :P well... as close as i can get anyway :)

well, laundry's done, but homework is still piled up. i suppose i should do some of that. blah, i really dislike homework. not as much as laundry, but still...
Jessica 6:19 PM

Tuesday, January 22, 2002

yah, i haven't blogged in a really long time. i guess i've just been really busy. being back at school is great, though. i'm taking some awesome classes this semester:

Biological Statistics
Cell and Molecular Biology
Psychology
Ecology
Animal Physiology
Social Behavior of Birds and Mammals

neat, huh? :) i was gonna take the first part of ochem this semester, but they canceled it! so i had to replace it. in the end, i'm really happy with my schedule. the classes are great. but yeah, i'm already very behind on reading ... and it's only the second week! *sigh*

other than that.... nothing much has been going on. i'm basically sitting around, going to class, doing homework, and that's it. i did get a new piercing right before break ended though -- my nose! hehe, i'll put a pic at the bottom of this post. i love it! i always though i really wouldn't like a nose piercing on me, but then i just decided i wanted one, and it looks great (imo). woowoo!

yeah, i think i'll go do some more slacking, play some more computer games. woohoo! :)


Jessica 12:55 PM