///hear me roar///

Friday, October 11, 2002

Wednesday night Dan flagged me down after class. We talked for a long time, it felt really great to talk to him again. It was hard not to reach out to him though, not to touch him, to kiss him. But I think I did well. I only started crying twice, and I saw the tears well up in his eyes too. We talked about everything... life in general, what we've been up to... the break-up, us... etc. I'm glad he's talking to me again. But we're not going to hang out just yet... only talking for now I guess. He's making the rules, I'm following them.

I honestly think this is stupid. I think him and I are great for each other. I think he's making one of the biggest mistakes of his life by throwing away everything he had with me, instead of trying to make it work. It pisses me off, because not only is he hurting himself, he's hurting me, too... and that's not fair. I think he'll regret this...

My kitties are back with me. Although I wouldn't really know it because they aren't paying any attention to me. Oh well, that's cats for ya. I'm glad they're back here with me though.

I'm spending my Friday night at home, alone. And I'm not even doing anything productive. I need to start studying for Monday's OChem test, I need to finish unpacking... yet here I sit. Alone. Bored. Sad.


Jessica 6:36 PM