///hear me roar///

Saturday, October 05, 2002

Well, I did good today as far as keeping distracted. This break-up is giving me a great chance to spend time with some friends. I had lunch at El Rodeo with Jeff, he paid. That was nice, we discussed his girlfriend most of the time though, and relationships are not my strong point in conversations right now! That's OK, I can't hold it against him that he's happy.

Then I went to dinner with someone I had never met in person before, just online. He was the single most boring person I've ever met. We went to BW3, and there were lots of loud TVs, which was great b/c we didn't have to talk much. After eating he wanted to hang out some more, but I told him I had obligations and got outta there, hehe.

This evening I went and saw "Red Dragon" with Wes and Aaron, two guys I haven't hung out with in a really long time. I was looking forward to seeing this movie with Dan, so I was a little reluctant at first. But it was a really awesome movie (Anthony Hopkins is sooooo creepy), and I enjoyed the company I was in. After the movie we went to IHOP and I ran into Travis. He was extremely shocked to hear about Dan and I. We agreed that we have to hang out more :) I ate a little, and we talked for awhile. I had a lot of fun, even though sadness was hanging over my head.

All in all it was a great day, I also got some stuff done around the house (need to finish up that laundry)... However, I was definitely sad all day long. It wasn't that all consuming awful crying sadness... but I was just sad. I miss Dan. I hope he figures out what he wants and what he needs to do, and contacts me soonish. I'd hate to lose him forever as a friend. Wes told me tonight that if he says he'll contact me when he's ready, it means he never will. But Dan's sincere, and we had something great... So I think it'll all be OK in the end...


Jessica 10:40 PM