///hear me roar///

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

Yeah yeah yeah. I'm around. I'm just going through some big ups and downs right now. Well, mostly downs. I still don't have a job, but that should be worked out by this weekend. I had a decent interview on Monday, and another place that has told me that my resume is on the top of the pile, and they'll be getting in touch with me this week. Having a job will solve most of my stresses, and make me feel a lot better.

I'm also itching to get back into school. I want my degree so I can do the things I really want to do. And I just feel so ... I don't know, I just want to be learning about the things that interest me. My life feels so static right now. I'm just working on the application, but I'm pretty sure you have to be a resident in WA for a year before getting in state rates, and you have to be able to prove it (mail, etc). And there's no way I can afford out of state rates, so it looks like I'll be taking a longer break from school than I planned.

But I guess it's not really all downs. Those two things are kind of major, but at the same time I'm having good times, too. Tony and I honestly couldn't be better. I'm gaining more trust in him and more confidence in the relationship everyday. It was rough at first, because my last boyfriend hurt me so badly and so completely, and when Tony came along I was not ready for a relationship. But things are looking better than they have yet, and I look forward to them just getting better and better. I love Tony very much... I feel lucky to have found him and his love.

OK, enough of that mushy stuff. I'm also going out some more (thanks to Tony for footing the bill when we do go out), to local goth clubs and dancing and meeting people. I've met a couple of people who definitely have great friend potential. I think having friends around also helps things a lot. Because upon first arriving in Seattle, I really didn't know anyone other than Tony. I think that also put some stress on the relationship, because while spending time with him is amazing, we also need to hang out with other people and socialize with friends.

Anyway, I've been rambling. I'm going to try to update my blog more often, and try to stay in touch with old friends more.

xo,
Jess


Jessica 1:49 PM

Thursday, April 10, 2003

So I went to an employment agency. I actually got some really great leads already that look really promising. For one thing, there are three job openings for lab assistants. High school diploma, and come college lab experience is a plus. I have sooo much college lab experience, and I fit all the other qualifications pretty well, too. God I hope I get a job soon. The stress and overdue bills are killing me.

Went bowling/karaoking Tuesday night with some friends. That was a lot of fun. It was definitely more karake and less bowling :) I was amazed how easily I got up there and made a fool of myself! Good times :)

Tony and I went to the Mercury last night, this goth club here in Seattle. We met up with some of his friends there, and I met some new people. So we sat around, talked to friends, danced a *ton*, and drank some yummy drinks. I had a blast, and it made me wonder why we don't do that more often. It was good times.

Not much else going on I'm afraid -- but I just need to say that I adore my sweet kitties and I feel so damn lucky to have Tony in my life right now.

Jessica 5:32 PM

Monday, April 07, 2003

Well my weekend started off terribly. On Friday Tony and I got all ready to go to Burning Man recompression in Canada and drug all of our stuff down to the garage to pack up my van. As I walked around the side to open the sliding side door, I noticed a *ton* of glass on the ground. Just as I exclaimed my shock to Tony, I looked up and saw that the glass was my side window. Smashed to pieces and all over the ground. And all over my van's interior. Ugh. I let out some expletives, and then looked through my belongings and found nothing missing! I even had a DVD player still in the box, a computer monitor, and a discman among my things. Bizarre. Maybe the idiot broke the glass then got scared off? So that was a relief, but I still have to foot the bill for getting the window replaced, and that sucks. Especially since I still can't find a job. Blah!!

So anyway, we ended up trying to clean all of the glass outta my car and going to Fred Meyer to get some heavy duty plastic and tape, and making a temporary fix of the window. We then decided to leave for Canada Saturday instead. The rest of my weekend was pretty awesome. Canada is so beautiful!! The mountains, the water, it was really amazing. And I'd never been on a ferry before :) The recompression party was tons of fun. We stayed in a cabin with 8 other people who were very cool, and met tons of other nice people. Saturday was full of fire and fire spinning and partying and whatnot, and Sunday was really laid back and chill. I had a really good time, and now I'm *really* looking forward to Burning Man :-D

Jessica 7:47 PM

Wednesday, April 02, 2003

OK, well Rika has told me that I'm not allowed to stop blogging, and I gotta listen, right? ;) And Aparna likes reading, and I can't refuse her, either :)

I'll just make this little blog about the great time I had on Sunday. I have some crap going on (obvious from my last post, eh?) that I don't really wanna go into right now, so I'll forget about it for right now and talk about good things.

Well I finally made it to the top of the Space Needle. There's a revolving restaurant at the top, and Tony took me there for dinner on Sunday. It was amazing!! The view is just incredible, and the food was sooooo yummy, not to mention the frozen mixed drinks :-D We had a great time dining and watching the view... looking out over the Puget Sound, Tony pointing out different places. We could even see the apartment from the top! :)

Well after dinner we went downstairs and spend a little bit of time browsing the gift shop, then went into the arcade! We played lots of fun games together, then went outside and rode the ferris wheel :) I love ferris wheels! It seems like not much, but we had a blast. Seattle is fucking awesome, and so is my boy, Tony...

Let's see... I still don't have a job. The economy here is really shit. There are some telemarketing jobs available though, and it looks like that's what I'll be going with. Not the best, but it's money, right? And I definitely need to start making some cash. Also, I have my application for University of Washington half filled out online! I really wanna get back into school and get my degree and start doing the things I really want to do. Realizing that the job market sucks and that I'll probably hate any job I get just gives me even more motivation to get back into it. And talking to the people I interned with at CPT is *huge* motivation, because there are two keeper positions available, and they'll probably get them because they're graduating in May. So hopefully I'll be in college again this fall, but most definitely by next spring!

OK, time for lunch and whatnot...
Jessica 12:03 PM

Tuesday, April 01, 2003

Yeah, I don't know. Maybe I should stop blogging. After all, it just proves your point even more that I'm a selfish brat, right?
Jessica 12:54 PM