///hear me roar///

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

Yeah yeah yeah. I'm around. I'm just going through some big ups and downs right now. Well, mostly downs. I still don't have a job, but that should be worked out by this weekend. I had a decent interview on Monday, and another place that has told me that my resume is on the top of the pile, and they'll be getting in touch with me this week. Having a job will solve most of my stresses, and make me feel a lot better.

I'm also itching to get back into school. I want my degree so I can do the things I really want to do. And I just feel so ... I don't know, I just want to be learning about the things that interest me. My life feels so static right now. I'm just working on the application, but I'm pretty sure you have to be a resident in WA for a year before getting in state rates, and you have to be able to prove it (mail, etc). And there's no way I can afford out of state rates, so it looks like I'll be taking a longer break from school than I planned.

But I guess it's not really all downs. Those two things are kind of major, but at the same time I'm having good times, too. Tony and I honestly couldn't be better. I'm gaining more trust in him and more confidence in the relationship everyday. It was rough at first, because my last boyfriend hurt me so badly and so completely, and when Tony came along I was not ready for a relationship. But things are looking better than they have yet, and I look forward to them just getting better and better. I love Tony very much... I feel lucky to have found him and his love.

OK, enough of that mushy stuff. I'm also going out some more (thanks to Tony for footing the bill when we do go out), to local goth clubs and dancing and meeting people. I've met a couple of people who definitely have great friend potential. I think having friends around also helps things a lot. Because upon first arriving in Seattle, I really didn't know anyone other than Tony. I think that also put some stress on the relationship, because while spending time with him is amazing, we also need to hang out with other people and socialize with friends.

Anyway, I've been rambling. I'm going to try to update my blog more often, and try to stay in touch with old friends more.

xo,
Jess


Jessica 1:49 PM