///hear me roar///

Friday, May 21, 2004

Alright kids. It's been awhile, almost a year. Wow. I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore, but here I am. Things have certainly changed in the last year.

I suppose the most dramatic change would have to be that Tony and I are no longer together. After a lot of arguements, a lot of back and forth, a lot of me being strung along, he finally broke things off with me early February. At first, of course, I tried to deny it, and tried to get him back. I was a mess, a disaster. But once I got passed that, things have been easier. Of course I still see him, because we have a lot of mutual friends, and we're both involved in the same communities. But now I'm OK hanging out with him, seeing him, being around him. Sometimes I still miss him, but I no longer long to be back with him.

And now I have someone new in my life. He's a very amazing, caring, romantic person who makes me extremely happy. We've been friends for a long time, but only recently took it to the next level. I simply adore him. The only problem is that he lives in L.A. Heh. I seem to have developed a habit of falling for men who live impossibly far away from me. But we're nurturing the relationship, even over one thousand miles, and things are going very well. If they continue on the current track, I honestly see myself moving to L.A. within the next year. I cannot give up something that could be amazing just because of distance. Which is what landed me in Seattle in the first place...

Other than that, my life is just that: a typical life. I'm currently unemployed and struggling. But I have job leads, and things will work out somehow, they always do. I still live in the same downtown Seattle apartment, and I still have my two lovely cats. I've made and lost some friends over the last year, and I love them all. I also lost someone very close to me last October, and I went through a very hard time because of it, and I still miss her from time to time. But I've accepted it. And I'm alive, living, breathing, loving, dreaming and being me.

So life is being life, as it tends to do. If you read this, drop me a comment. I've lost touch with far too many important people...

Jessica 1:39 PM