///hear me roar///

Tuesday, November 27, 2001

yay! sarika and deanna brought me and liz ice cream! they are so sweet, i love them. yay for being cheered up by good friends!! :)
Jessica 8:02 PM

GimeeFish (8:50:53 PM): don't worry, i'm hear to make sure everythign goes smooth like peanut butter
GimeeFish (8:51:02 PM): but tastes like chunky peanut butter when you try it

he's the best. i love you dan :)

Jessica 6:23 PM

thank you so much sarika, deanna and liz. you guys really helped me smile tonight. :) i may not have many friends, but the ones i do have are quality :)
Jessica 4:54 PM

i had a really nice thanksgiving break. did lots of relaxing, spent a lot of really nice quality time with dan, the whole family went to new jersey for the weekend for a bar mitzfah and we had a blast. i would include the details, but that's not the reason i'm blogging, just thought i should catch you up.

for some reason, i've have felt like total shit today. this is the closest i've felt to my old depression since i was "cured". ugh, it sucks. where the hell is this coming from?!? i don't do this anymore, i'm not depressed anymore. yet here i am, more depressed than i've felt in a long time.

i don't know, maybe it's being back here after such a wonderful break? having so much work to do, so much pressure on me, not enough time, stress Stress STRESS. i bet that's it. that's probably also the cause of my headaches. blah, being back at school sucks. and i'm so lazy, i've honestly sat here in my chair doing absolutely nothing *all day*! how sad is that? there are a million things i could've and should've been doing. really. grrrrr.

i think one thing that's got me down is that i've been thinking lately, and i only have 2 pretty good friends. i have a couple other decent friends, and that's it. is that the "normal" amount? is there a "normal" number of friends? i just feel like no one's ever around when i want someone to eat with, or someone to just chill with, i never do that. the only time any of my friends wanna see me is when they wanna go somewhere. whatever happened to just chillin, talking, laughing, that kinda thing? i dunno, i just feel like i have no friends lately. no one i can really go crazy with, be silly, and just laugh. blah.

i lack social skills. among a lot of other things, but this is the one i'm focusing on right now.
Jessica 2:49 PM

Monday, November 19, 2001

yay! thanksgiving break is here! woohoo! yeah, so anyway, i'm at dan's for the break. its so great to sleep however much i want, and to just relax and do nothing :) and of course i love his family, so that helps :)

so we took the home ride bus here, and got here friday around 7:30. but the bus company left dan's luggage at jmu, on the curb. so he has no suitcase, poor thing. we still haven't figured out how to get it here. there are buses that run on tuesday, because that's when jum gets out, so i think that's what were gonna hafta do. meanwhile he just has to constantly wash his clothes. luckily, he did have a few things here. i'm just glad my luggage wasn't left behind ;)

so we get here, and that night we went and saw harry potter!! nicole (dan's sister) went and bought the tickets earlier in the week. we got to the theatre an hour early, to stand in line for seats. man, that movie was so awesome!! i loved it :) i've read all four books, so i've really been looking forward to this movie. they really did an incredible job turning the book into a movie. it was so great :) i don't care if they're kid books, she's an awesome writer and the books are very good. hehe. it was great.

other than that we haven't done much, just been relaxing. it's been nice. last night dan read to me until i fell asleep :) just because he wanted to. what a sweetheart. i love him so much, he's so great. i haven't had someone read me to sleep since i was a little girl and my mommy did it :) it was nice :)

*contented sigh*
Jessica 8:42 AM

Wednesday, November 14, 2001

ok, i know i *just* blogged, but i have to agian. i have discovered a wonderful new secret. my hair is awful, and it gets *really* greasy after not washing it for *one* day. really obnoxious. well lately, showers have not been a priority, heh. like i haven't had a shower today, and my hair was looking really disgusting, i swear it looks like i haven't showered in a week. anyway, i got this brilliant idea, and put baby powder in it. and the baby powder absorbed the grease!! and it makes my hair smell good too!! yay!



yes, i know, i'm disgusting. but no, i don't care.


Jessica 11:30 AM

LOL, hahahahahhaa

i went and found my smurf name. yet another one borrow from justin :)

Your Smurf Name is: Man-Eating Smurf

yay!!

i know, i'm a huge dork. i got way too much of a kick outta that. i don't like boys, what a fitting smurf name, eh? :)
Jessica 11:23 AM

Monday, November 12, 2001

i guess i should blog at some point, huh?

i started my new job on thursday. at first it was hard, but it's getting easier and easier, and the money's good. however, those 7pm - 3am shifts this weekend really killed me, completely screwed up my sleeping and eating schedule, and i've felt kinda sick since. bleh. i work tomorrow 3 - 11pm. but the money's so good that it really doesn't matter.

i'm having a hard time trusting girls lately. isn't this silly? don't girls usually have a hard time trusting boys? but to be honest, i've been fucked over by female friends a million times more than i have by males, be them friends or boyfriends. don't get me wrong, i've had my share of boyfriends that were complete dicks... but i've never had a male friend screw me over, or break my heart. and i've had *so* many female friends that really killed me. so as i sit here in new friendships or on the brink of friendships with females, i find myself questioning their sincerity. it's awful, i don't wanna do that, but i really can't help it. girls are bitches. period. and it's really hard for me to realize that there are some out there that really do care. it's took me a year of *living* with liz to fully trust her friendship. ugh, i'm so afraid that this will get in the way of real, lasting friendships. i'm almost subconscious, i don't even realize i'm doing it sometimes.

anyway... just some thoughts running around in my head. i really need some sleep. a very very long day and night tomorrow... goodnight.
Jessica 10:43 PM

Thursday, November 08, 2001

Random Purity Tests:

You answered "yes" to 61 of 100 questions, making you 39.0% sexually pure (61.0% sexually corrupt) The average purity for this test is 56.5%.

You answered "yes" to 18 of 100 questions, making you 82.0% nerd pure (18.0% nerd corrupt); that is, you are 82.0% pure in the nerd domain (you have 18.0% nerd in you).

You answered "yes" to 87 of 400 questions, making you 78.2% movie pure (21.8% movie corrupt); that is, you are 78.2% pure in the Movie Nerd domain (your Nerdiness is 21.8%).

You answered "yes" to 26 of 62 questions, making you 58.1% Internet pure (41.9% Internet corrupt); that is, you are 58.1% pure in the Internet domain (you have 41.9% Internet in you).
Jessica 11:52 AM

Wednesday, November 07, 2001

hehe, i took the blogaholic quiz i found on justin's blog and got a 48/100 :P one of the questions was "Do you think this quiz is blogworthy?", and here i am, blogging about it :P
Jessica 7:01 AM

Tuesday, November 06, 2001

oh yeah! i forgot to put it here as well -- go take my quiz!! see how well you know me ;)
Jessica 8:28 AM

man, yesterday sucked so much. i got up early to study for my theatre exam, since i ended up slacking off all day sunday, and i felt incredibly sick. after about an hour of trying really hard to concentrate, i gave into the migraine headache trying to consume me. and then i had to run to the bathroom, and throw up... god it was awful. it's been ages since i've thrown up. after that, i couldn't get out of bed, i felt like complete crap. so i emailed my professor to tell her i couldn't make it to the exam, and went to sleep. ugh, it sucked. dan and sarika came over later that morning, and brought me a muffin and apple juice :) that was really sweet. by then i was feeling a bit better and was able to eat the muffin, which helped, b/c my stomach was (obviously) completely empty. dan also called my professor and left her a message.

i'm feeling better today... i think it must've been a 24 hour stomach virus or something... i was even feeling a lot better by last night. weird.

the bad thing is, i have yet to hear from my professor :( if she doesn't let me make up the exam, i'm screwed, i fail the class. our entire grade is based on 3 tests. i have an A in there! blah, she just has to let me take a make up :/
Jessica 8:22 AM

Sunday, November 04, 2001

this weekend has been nice :) friday was pretty uneventful, i didn't go to my one class, and i didn't go to work :P i just sat here and talked to people, hehe. that night i just hung out at dan's, for movie watching and cuddling, it was really nice! :)

on saturday, dan and i laid in bed doing nothing until about 1:30 :P hehe... then we finally got up and showered and all that and went to lunch with adam at the vietnamese tea house. it was *so* yummy. mmmm... i had never gotten anything there besides pho, and now i realize that there are lots of other good things there :) then we went and hung out at adam's for a little while, and adam and i dropped dan off at home and then went and got liz and went to rendezvous! yay! i got cool new jewelry for my 4g lobes, after trying to go to 2g and ripping one lobe... ouch! anyway... saturday night the four of us ended up going and watching monsters, inc. it was really cute!! i liked it, even though it was a kids' movie :P

and now it's sunday, and i just realized not too long ago that i have a huge test tomorrow! so all the work i was gonna catch up on... will have to wait :/ as well as my laundry :( it's a study day. boo!
Jessica 8:28 AM