///hear me roar///

Monday, July 14, 2003

I just had the best weekend of my life. Seriously. It was fucking amazing.

It started out with going to the beach on Friday and spinning fire. This time we had music, and I've been practicing like crazy... so I think those two combined made my performance much better than ones in the past. And everyone else was fucking awesome as well. There were so many people there (spinners and spectators). It was a blast!! :)

Later that night me and the boy finally sat down and really talked through some things. We're now better than we've ever been before. We both realized some personal issues, and both had breakthroughs. I feel liberated!

Then on Saturday, Tony and I went over to the Capitol Hill Block Party. We caught the tail end of the Visqueen performance (who rock, by the way), then met up with some friends. Tony and I left for a little while around 5, and went and shopped at Toys in Babeland... That was super fun! Then we went back to the block party around 7, and Jesse made me sit down, because he had something to tell me. Then he said that not long after Tony and I left, he met KRIST NOVOSELIC. For those of you who don't know me very well, Nirvana is my favorite band ever. EVER. I have many imports, the box set, a scrap book, magazines sealed in plastic, etc. I still collect imports and whatnot to this day. So when Jesse told me that, I started shaking and got teary eyed. I knew I had to find him. So me, Jesse, and Tony took off... we searched the entire block party, everywhere... no Krist :( So we finally get back to where everyone else is hanging out still, and Tony and I went to get a drink... Jesse motions us back and says that Krist walked by the table five minutes ago. I had missed him *again*!! But we knew what direction he went, and we finally found him and watched him go into the parking lot from back stage... we ran around, and met him in the lot. I was so nervous, and tried to calm myself as we walked up to him. I introduced myself, and shook his hand and told him what a tremendous honor it was to meet him. I got choked up, and he pulled me in for a hug! He was super nice. Tony took a picture of me with him and he wanted to see it, but he didn't like the way he looked, and demanded a reshoot! He is such a fucking cool, down to earth guy. We stood around and talked to him for a little while, and I got him to sign the only paper I had -- a dollar bill. And as we were saying our goodbyes, he leaned in and gave me a KISS ON THE CHEEK! And I kissed his! I still can't believe I met Krist Novoselic. It's a highlight of my life. I'll post the picture soon!!

Now -- I know there are going to be those of you who laugh because you think it's silly to care about Nirvana and/or Krist Novoselic, those of you who will scoff because you think Nirvana sucked... I encountered both of these reactions from friends on Saturday... but let me say -- I don't fucking care. I have loved this band since I was 12, and it's seriously an amazing thing to me to meet Krist. Just try to be happy for me, don't laugh at it.

So yeah ... that made my fucking year. Then Tony and I watched the Presidents show, which was pretty awesome :) I really like those guys! Then I finally went home and watched some TV and went to sleep.

On Sunday, Tony came over and we went out for lunch, then we went back to my place and played the Kama Sutra game we had bought at Toys in Babeland -- for three hours! That game rocks! :-D After that, we went over to Chris and Kammi's for their 2 year anniversary and hung out with them and Bridget watching movies and eating food that Kammi made (which was yummy!!). It was a lot of fun :)

Whew!! What a long entry... but my weekend was just incredible! :-D
Jessica 10:11 AM

Tuesday, June 24, 2003

Wow, I'm finally in my new place!! Just as of this past weekend. The move in date was pushed back a couple of times, due to having to get the tub replaced and problems the plumber was having. But I'm there now!! Yay! I love the place, it's just perfect for me. I think I got extremely lucky in finding the place. Tony and I took some pictures, and I'll post them when I have them. It's good having my own place, where I can be alone and do whatever I want. Last night was the first night I slept there alone, without Tony. It was a little difficult to get to sleep, I'm so used to him being beside me. So I watched TV until I nodded off. Once I go to sleep though, I slept pretty soundly. And the kitties seem to be adjusting well, they're pretty much used to the place now :)

Other news? Uhm, working a lot. I worked 11 hours yesterday. It kinda sucks, but the paycheck will be nice. Not much else is going on really. Still have some things to move from Tony's place... OH! Yeah, my van broke down. She's totally dead for now, which is why I still have some stuff to move. But I get paid this Friday, so next week I'll take her somewhere and see what can be done. This van is nothing but trouble, I swear.

Yeah, I should get back to work (that's where I am -- no internet access in the new place yet)...
Jessica 8:42 AM

Tuesday, June 03, 2003

Just a quick update from work because I'm bursting with happiness -- I GOT THE STUDIO!! Woohoo! So I got approved for that studio apartment I was talking about in my last post. I'm going over there after work today to deal with all the paperwork. And then it's mine! YAY!
Jessica 1:42 PM

Friday, May 30, 2003

Hah! How ironic that after that post I didn't post for a month. The truth is, I got a job. A really good one. I work Monday through Friday, 6:30am to 3pm. And I work over time at least once a week. But yeah, I very rarely get the chance to surf around online while at work (that's what I'm doing right now, but I currently don't have an assignment). And when I get home, I usually nap until Tony gets home. Then he's home, and, well... neither of us really wants to get online, we'd rather spend time together. So yeah. That's why I'm not really around anymore. But that's a good thing, too, because it means I have a job and I'm getting paid :) And it's a great job! I do data entry and image mapping for this online shopping web company. Good pay, full medical and dental in 90 days, good hours, etc. So I apologize to people I haven't talked to in awhile... I'm just super busy working over here.

In other news -- Tony and I are wonderful :) I love that boy to pieces. We took a trip to San Francisco a couple of weeks ago. That was awesome, we had a total blast! I love that city... the ocean smell all along the piers is great. And we went to the aquarium, I love aquariums. It was awesome.

And I'm just now on my feet enough to be looking for apartments, and yesterday I found my dream place! It's a studio in downtown Seattle, and it's amazing. It's pretty large for a studio, has all new carpet and linoleum, a new fridge, nice large bathroom, walk-in closet... and it's 2 blocks from work... and it's only $475/month!! I filled out the application last night, and I'm going back today after work to give it to the manager -- who is really cool, another plus. God I hope I get this place! I'm really excited about it. :)

Alright, looks like I should get some work done here...

Jessica 6:48 AM

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

Yeah yeah yeah. I'm around. I'm just going through some big ups and downs right now. Well, mostly downs. I still don't have a job, but that should be worked out by this weekend. I had a decent interview on Monday, and another place that has told me that my resume is on the top of the pile, and they'll be getting in touch with me this week. Having a job will solve most of my stresses, and make me feel a lot better.

I'm also itching to get back into school. I want my degree so I can do the things I really want to do. And I just feel so ... I don't know, I just want to be learning about the things that interest me. My life feels so static right now. I'm just working on the application, but I'm pretty sure you have to be a resident in WA for a year before getting in state rates, and you have to be able to prove it (mail, etc). And there's no way I can afford out of state rates, so it looks like I'll be taking a longer break from school than I planned.

But I guess it's not really all downs. Those two things are kind of major, but at the same time I'm having good times, too. Tony and I honestly couldn't be better. I'm gaining more trust in him and more confidence in the relationship everyday. It was rough at first, because my last boyfriend hurt me so badly and so completely, and when Tony came along I was not ready for a relationship. But things are looking better than they have yet, and I look forward to them just getting better and better. I love Tony very much... I feel lucky to have found him and his love.

OK, enough of that mushy stuff. I'm also going out some more (thanks to Tony for footing the bill when we do go out), to local goth clubs and dancing and meeting people. I've met a couple of people who definitely have great friend potential. I think having friends around also helps things a lot. Because upon first arriving in Seattle, I really didn't know anyone other than Tony. I think that also put some stress on the relationship, because while spending time with him is amazing, we also need to hang out with other people and socialize with friends.

Anyway, I've been rambling. I'm going to try to update my blog more often, and try to stay in touch with old friends more.

xo,
Jess


Jessica 1:49 PM

Thursday, April 10, 2003

So I went to an employment agency. I actually got some really great leads already that look really promising. For one thing, there are three job openings for lab assistants. High school diploma, and come college lab experience is a plus. I have sooo much college lab experience, and I fit all the other qualifications pretty well, too. God I hope I get a job soon. The stress and overdue bills are killing me.

Went bowling/karaoking Tuesday night with some friends. That was a lot of fun. It was definitely more karake and less bowling :) I was amazed how easily I got up there and made a fool of myself! Good times :)

Tony and I went to the Mercury last night, this goth club here in Seattle. We met up with some of his friends there, and I met some new people. So we sat around, talked to friends, danced a *ton*, and drank some yummy drinks. I had a blast, and it made me wonder why we don't do that more often. It was good times.

Not much else going on I'm afraid -- but I just need to say that I adore my sweet kitties and I feel so damn lucky to have Tony in my life right now.

Jessica 5:32 PM

Monday, April 07, 2003

Well my weekend started off terribly. On Friday Tony and I got all ready to go to Burning Man recompression in Canada and drug all of our stuff down to the garage to pack up my van. As I walked around the side to open the sliding side door, I noticed a *ton* of glass on the ground. Just as I exclaimed my shock to Tony, I looked up and saw that the glass was my side window. Smashed to pieces and all over the ground. And all over my van's interior. Ugh. I let out some expletives, and then looked through my belongings and found nothing missing! I even had a DVD player still in the box, a computer monitor, and a discman among my things. Bizarre. Maybe the idiot broke the glass then got scared off? So that was a relief, but I still have to foot the bill for getting the window replaced, and that sucks. Especially since I still can't find a job. Blah!!

So anyway, we ended up trying to clean all of the glass outta my car and going to Fred Meyer to get some heavy duty plastic and tape, and making a temporary fix of the window. We then decided to leave for Canada Saturday instead. The rest of my weekend was pretty awesome. Canada is so beautiful!! The mountains, the water, it was really amazing. And I'd never been on a ferry before :) The recompression party was tons of fun. We stayed in a cabin with 8 other people who were very cool, and met tons of other nice people. Saturday was full of fire and fire spinning and partying and whatnot, and Sunday was really laid back and chill. I had a really good time, and now I'm *really* looking forward to Burning Man :-D

Jessica 7:47 PM

Wednesday, April 02, 2003

OK, well Rika has told me that I'm not allowed to stop blogging, and I gotta listen, right? ;) And Aparna likes reading, and I can't refuse her, either :)

I'll just make this little blog about the great time I had on Sunday. I have some crap going on (obvious from my last post, eh?) that I don't really wanna go into right now, so I'll forget about it for right now and talk about good things.

Well I finally made it to the top of the Space Needle. There's a revolving restaurant at the top, and Tony took me there for dinner on Sunday. It was amazing!! The view is just incredible, and the food was sooooo yummy, not to mention the frozen mixed drinks :-D We had a great time dining and watching the view... looking out over the Puget Sound, Tony pointing out different places. We could even see the apartment from the top! :)

Well after dinner we went downstairs and spend a little bit of time browsing the gift shop, then went into the arcade! We played lots of fun games together, then went outside and rode the ferris wheel :) I love ferris wheels! It seems like not much, but we had a blast. Seattle is fucking awesome, and so is my boy, Tony...

Let's see... I still don't have a job. The economy here is really shit. There are some telemarketing jobs available though, and it looks like that's what I'll be going with. Not the best, but it's money, right? And I definitely need to start making some cash. Also, I have my application for University of Washington half filled out online! I really wanna get back into school and get my degree and start doing the things I really want to do. Realizing that the job market sucks and that I'll probably hate any job I get just gives me even more motivation to get back into it. And talking to the people I interned with at CPT is *huge* motivation, because there are two keeper positions available, and they'll probably get them because they're graduating in May. So hopefully I'll be in college again this fall, but most definitely by next spring!

OK, time for lunch and whatnot...
Jessica 12:03 PM

Tuesday, April 01, 2003

Yeah, I don't know. Maybe I should stop blogging. After all, it just proves your point even more that I'm a selfish brat, right?
Jessica 12:54 PM

Monday, March 17, 2003

Yeah yeah yeah, I know, it's been a week...

I still don't have a job. This is starting to really bother me, and my money is slowly (well, not so slowly) disappearing. I don't know what I'll do if I can't find a job soon :-/

Anyway, I don't wanna talk about that, because I had an amazing weekend. Especially Saturday :) Making french toast for my love, hot showers, lounging around, cutting Tony's hair, and then my welcome to Seattle party! I had such a freaking blast! I got pretty tipsy, and just hung out smoking and chatting with people. It was great :) I really love Seattle. I think I'll love it more once I get a job, and start hanging out with more people. But Saturday was really great. We went out Friday night, too, but I ended up not having the best time because I drank a little too much a little too fast, and when we all went back to Lane's, I was too sick to enjoy myself. But at the club and on the walk to Lane's, I had a great time... :-P

And things with Tony and I couldn't be better... :)
Jessica 12:59 PM

Monday, March 10, 2003

Me: ::Walking down Olive Way::
Stranger w/girlfriend: Excuse me, do you know any good places to eat around here, kinda cheap?
Me: I just moved here about a week ago, so I have *no* idea.
Stranger: ::Amused smile::, Oh, OK
Me: Yeah, I barely know where I'm going right now! Sorry!
Stranger: ::Chuckle::, OK, well thanks anyway, and good luck!
Me: Thanks! ::Turn to continue on my way::
Stranger: Calling after me: Well at least you're lucky enough to live here!
Me: Turning back to address stranger: I agree completely!! ::Huge grin::


Emphasis on the huge grin there, at the end :)
Jessica 4:11 PM

OK, so according to some people I don't write enough :-P The main reason I haven't written in a few days is that it was the weekend, and Tony and I tend to spend the weekends really close to each other ... :)

So I went to fire spinning class on Wednesday, and learned some more with my staff, and learned how to eat fire! That's right, I'm a fire eater! It was pretty awesome, and I felt pretty damn cool. Class was fun, but I get easily frustrated when I can't immediately get a certain move. I need to work on that, because this is a slow process and I'm not going to be great at it after only two lessons. Oh it's so much fun though :)

This weekend was pretty packed and fun. Friday night Tony and I went and hung out with some of his friends from Burning Man and watched both versions of the Ring, the English and Japanese. I had an OK time, but I didn't know anyone and movie watching isn't exactly conducive to getting to know people and talk to them. I pretty much stayed snuggled against Tony the whole time (not that I minded :))

Saturday we went out and ran some errands, walked around town, job searched. Saturday night we went out to a couple of goth dance clubs, and had a pretty good time. I got nice and tipsy at the first club, danced a bit, then as I was ready to dance some more the place closed. So we headed over to the other place, but of course they were no longer serving alcohol. But we danced a bit, and ended up running into some friends of Tony's and talking to them for a long time.

Then yesterday was awesome, because we got the materials we needed and built my very first fire staff :-D It's soooo pretty. It's just a fire staff with new wicks, and it has red and yellow tape around the middle. It's great! We also made the tools needed for fire eating. Then we went out into the courtyard, and practised eating fire and I practiced spinning my staff some. It felt great, because it's the right size for me. All of Tony's are way too long. And last night one of Tony's friends that I met at the club (Kristin) came over and brought an application from this pizza place that she works, becuase they're hiring. I'm supposed to go in tomorrow and talk to the manager that does the hiring. I hope that goes well! I already know someone who works there, I'd have a job sooner than I expected, and it's about a six minute walk from here. Perfect!

Well, you wanted an update, and you got one -- a long and boring one :-P More interesting subject matter coming soon, I promise!
Jessica 11:09 AM

Wednesday, March 05, 2003

I'm still being really lazy here in Seattle. Recovering from being sick, recovering from that long and awful drive, and mostly -- just being lazy. But today I'm gonna get moving and get some things done that I've been meaning to do.

Last night was some fun :) I went with Tony to his foosball tournament (yes, he's in a foosball league). I watched some foosball, drank some Mike's, ate some good food. Just had fun in general. By the time we left I was all ready to go dancing or find some karaoke. But we came back to the apartment, did our own dancing in the living room (mainly just me, I was nice and tipsy), and ended up never making it back out. But we had an amazing evening in, with each other.

Tonight is fire spinning class. ::super excited super excited:: It's gonna rock, just because I've been dieing to learn how to do this since I first saw Tony and Eden do it in New York. It's just amazing. So we're going to that tonight, then maybe out to find some drinks and dancing, or even karaoke (after the drinks, of course).

I just gotta say: I love Seattle :)

Now it's time for showering and being productive!!
Jessica 12:19 PM

Monday, March 03, 2003

I just have to add an extra here -- I love Tony :-D He makes me smile so big, and laugh so loud, and love so completely.

Thanks, love, for being you.
Jessica 12:12 PM

Well, I now live in Seattle. Woohoo :)

The drive was so very long and tiring. First, on the 20th, I drove from NYC to Philly, to meet up with Ed. I ended up not getting Alice (my old car) fixed, but instead buying a minivan that a friend of his was selling. It's in great shape, and all tuned up and all that, and much roomier for all of my things and much more comfy for me and my two kitties. So I drive down there the 20th, ran around all day getting things sorted out, then drove back that night, and got up early on the 21st to start my trek out to Seattle. I drove through NJ, PA, and into OH and stayed with my family for two nights, then across OH, IN, and IL to stay with a friend near Chicago. Day three was into WI, through MN and into SD. And my lovely boy Tony decided to meet me in Sioux Falls, SD (where I already had hotel reservations), and ride the rest of the way with me. That was wonderful :-D Day four was across SD, into WY, to stay at a motel in Buffalo, WY. Then into MT, staying in Missoula, and finally day six took us across ID, and into WA, right on over to Seattle. Man, I was so happy to finally be here :):):)

I got sick along the way, a nasty case of tonsilitis. So my first day here in the city, Tony and I went out on a chase to find me a doctor, ugh. But I got some drugs and I'm doing better -- yay!! For the weekend Tony and I just stayed stuck to each others sides, and now it's Monday and back to work for him. There really isn't much news, since I was just driving (and driving, and driving) for the last week. But I miss some people so much right now -- Wes, Liz, Dan, Sarika, Aparna, Adam... Everyone stay in touch, OK?

Time for lunch and cigarettes and books...
Jessica 12:06 PM

Monday, February 17, 2003

I love getting comments in my blog. So leave one if you're here, even just to stop in and say hi :)

We have gotten so much snow here!! Right now we have at least 2 feet out there, and the last time I checked it was still coming down pretty good. Absolute craziness. It's in the top five as far as how much snow Central Park has seen this winter. And I have to be here for it! Stranded at Tom's place. I can't go into work, so I'm losing money :( I love the snow, but when it costs me money and I have no one to play in it with... it's not all that great, ya know? Bah to snow!

Turns out I'm going to be leaving here a day earlier than I expected. A friend of mine and Tom's (Ed) is visiting from Philly, and he's an auto mechanic. He's agreed to look at my car and repair anything at his cost for me. But after being here and test driving it, he's realized that it needs a new clutch (yikes!!). He says I need to plan on staying a night for that kind of big repair. Well I need to be in Ohio the night of the 21st (family bday party the 22nd), so I'll be leaving here and driving to Philly on the 20th instead of the 21st. This means I have tomorrow and Wednesday. And THAT'S IT. Jesus Christ, it's insane how quickly that crept up on me. Do you have any idea how much shit I have to do in the next two days?? Man oh man, I shouldn't even be on the computer right now, heh. Craziness.

I should actually be heading to bed now, we're getting up super early to head into the city and sit in on the Conan O'Brien show. This is so super exciting for me :-D

I'll make sure to blog about that when I get back! :Love: to my Blacksburg friends, especially Aparna dealing with the car accident and Wes for just being Wes... and much :love: to my Tony out on the West Coast :)
Jessica 9:20 PM

Saturday, February 15, 2003

A blog update -- how exciting ;-)

There's really not a *whole* lot going on around here. I've been working a lot, getting ready for my big move and whatnot. I'm starting to get antsy, anxious, nervous, and all other similar words. It's a little scary, ya know? Driving across the country alone like that. A little intimidating. But I'm very much looking forward to it. Yay to new adventures and going where life takes you.

I worked Wednesday night, and it was actually really good for a Wednesday. I was so pleasantly surprised. Then on Thursday I went into the city and hung out with Chelle, just watching TV and talking and whatnot... and then Jerry came home and we all goofed around and had a good time, ordered food and whatnot. I ended up staying a little too late, and my last train from Newark Penn Station left at 1:06 -- I realized this at 12:30 and knew I'd never make it. So I slept there on Jerry's futon, and left the next day. I was upset that my kitties had to be home all alone for a night (Tom was working), but I have to remind myself that they're *cats*. They're perfectly fine alone. :)

Friday was Valentine's Day. I hate that day. I've always gone on and on about how it's terrible, and this big corporate marketing scheme, etc etc... but yet every year, I hope and prey that the person I'm with at the time gets me something or does something for me. And every year I feel a little let down when that doesn't happen. This year was no different. I hate to admit it, but I was pretty upset that I didn't even get a card from Tony. I know, it's dumb and girly, but I never claimed to be perfect, did I? I actually didn't get any cards or any well wishes from anyone. But, I guess, it *is* Valentine's Day, and it *is* pretty silly. I hate that I get disppointed over it. Blah.

Anyway, I worked last night, and it was *terrible*. I guess that's because it was V-Day, so everyone was out somewhere nice with their significant others. I did the best I could, and unfortunately that wasn't very good last night. But I did go to this great little diner after work with someone I work with for breakfast. That almost made the night bareable ;)

I work tonight, too. I actually need to wrap up this post and go shower and all that. (I just had this enter my brain: "And all that JAZZ!" -- from Chicago, good movie!) After work Tom and a bunch of other people from the New York area are taking me into the city for a going away party. This should be fun :) I haven't gone out drinking and relaxing in awhile, so I'm looking forward to it. Should be good times.

Alright, time for showering and heading off to work and my pre-work phone call to Tony :)
Jessica 2:08 PM

Wednesday, February 12, 2003

Wow.

::Looks around, sees cobwebs in the corners, brushes away some dust...::

It has been quite some time, hasn't it? Wow, three months since my last post, and my life is so dramatically different. Kind of amazing just how different it is, really. It's so different, that I considered doing away with all of those old posts, and starting my blog from scratch for all the new readers, and the old ones, too. But I changed my mind -- there's no reason to do away with the past like that. It makes an interesting read for me, actually. A little surreal though.

Let's see, where can I start?? Honestly things are so different, and so much has happened. Well, I'll start with the subject of my last post -- Arwen. She came through surgery wonderfully, and fully recovered back into the mischevious little climber that she is. I still have both her and Simon (that's his new name, though not so new anymore), and they're both still doing great and keeping me company.

Other than those two little sweethearts -- everything is different. Right now I'm living in New Jersey temporarily. For xmas I went and visited my family in Ohio, then drove over here to spend some time with friends and party in NYC for New Year's Eve. I planned on going back to Virginia early January. I never made it back. I actually ended up meeting someone special at that New Year's Eve party, and my life has been changed because of him. Before New Year's, I was contemplating moving somewhere new and different -- but I didn't know where to, and the time of this supposed move was still unknown -- it wasn't a priority. Well the special man in the picture that link above points to (Tony) lives in Seattle, WA. So all of a sudden I had a destination, and a time frame (ASAP). So that's my plan. I've been working my ass off since the New Year's party, trying to get up the money to make this move possible. I haven't gotten very much together, really, but I'm leaving soon anyway. I made one last week long trip to VA, and packed what I could in my small car... everything else went either to Goodwill, the YMCA thrift store, or the dump. Since then I've been here working, except for a week long trip to Seattle, to spend some time with Tony (I missed him terribly), and to get a chance to see the city that was soon to be my new home place. I'm leaving NJ February 21st. What's that, nine days now?

Tony is a very special man. He's unlike anyone I've ever met before, and that's not me being dumb and romantic -- he really is that unique. We spent some incredible time together while he was here in NYC, and also a glorious week together in Seattle. I love this man, but I don't think I'm quite to where I can say I'm *in* love with him. But I can see myself falling head over heels in love eventually. I look forward to spending more time with him, and just being in a regular relationship with him. I think we have an amazing future together.

There are so many more things I feel I should talk about here, for all of those readers out there who don't know me personally enough to know all about my life. I'll talk about those things in time though (Dan, my friends in Blacksburg, my family, etc). Right now my laundry is calling, and I need to make some phone calls before heading off to work.

It's nice to be back... to have a place I can come and spill the things I'm thinking and feeling. And as always, feedback is very much welcomed and appreciated :)
Jessica 1:14 PM